When its low you nurture it, love it, praise it, are gentle with it....when its high you soothe it, calm it, play with it, laugh and smile together.
When it's stable then you maintain it.
This works really well if it is only you, only you in the entire world, but its not.
I'm only 58kg of the world, its hardly anything, a worthless piece of shit.
Sometimes the tears just keep falling and I have no idea how to stop them. Sometimes I just wanna run and jump and play.
I'm so up and down, so left and right, there is no stable - is no stable in sight?
Start planning.
